ok last post for 2.0... when i was moving some things around, i had 2 tabs open one with the template for 2.0 and one for 3.0, i thought the new template i pasted, and then uploaded with out viewing was for 3.0... but it wasn't. 2.0 then had my default test file i used when i was first putting together the site... with no blogger code, just bloger output ie. html in the form of posts/comments, so i backhacked 3.0's blogger code, put it into 2.0 and got all the posts back. but not the comments, perhaps i'll feel like playing around with the comment code, but prob not... not like there was that many or too important comments to be saved... and not like they aren't there... just not accesable on to 3.0 ----------- // reboot \\ -----------

every one gets even a little jealous some times, it just depends on what the situation is. and then how they react to it. and its funny how it makes them feal like crap some times too

i hate it when bad things happen to people you care very much about.

now i should really be in bed right now, or as soon as i got home but i'm not. i just have a couple things on my mind tonight.

first off went out with the girls from work again, namely Jen and Amy and and a good time. we ran into this girl that amy is trying to hook me up with but as things have turned out the last 2 times we were at the same place at the same time there was another guy, whom she knew or something to that sort, so who am i to interrupt that... and besides the bar seen isn't exactly my thing to try to talk to people/meet people i dunno. maybe cause there are way to many people in there at the same time.

we had tons and tons of pics taken of all of us, digital cams are fun toys let me tell ya. well all of you (the 3 that read this, and one whom i know out of the 3 for sure) know all ready.

we went back to jens and this guy and that girl amy was trying to hook me up with (whom she was talking to all night at the bar with) were on the coutch together so i went into the other room with amy and was hanging out where and some other people and jen, and let me tell you, that cuddling that that i've been wanting felt fucking nice tonight, just chilling with amy resting on her legs up on top of the futon me resting against her legs and jen across the futon and her head on my chest/lap got some good pics of it, good times good times.

on the flip side of that... things that i'm thinking of that aren't making feel too nifty:
- nights like this remind me of spending time with kat in boston, or just kat in general, i miss her
- will i ever get the girl? it's still bothers me a bit every now and then when jen talks about her exs or how she's waiting for her ex to come back from the military in front of me... wtf she knew how i felt, doesn't she might think that it could maybe bother me just a bit? or at least by my reactions how i totally lose interest in what she is saying and do something else? and this other girl erika, she has energy let me tell ya, kinda reminds me of kat... come to think of it all of the girls that i've had interests in (this last one eh so so ) but all of them have the same type of "energy" in one way or another, robin, kat, jen... and we know how all that went down...

but in all and all, i have good friends, so its not that bad. sure i'm lonely as fuck, always "the nice guy" but not the nice guy that someone want to be their boyfriend. its just funny how people tell me about these guys that they are with and they are treated like shit by them one way or other, and i'm thinking to my self, whats wrong with these guys, why fucking cheat on your girlfriend and then still keep it going.. if things aren't working out end it, talk about it, but dont fucking do something like that, its like slapping someone in the face. no respect for her, or the relationship. and a bunch of other shit that i can't figure out why peope do that shit.

i'd just like it, if a girl would "take the lead" as it were and be like hey i like you (and god willing she is cute and i like in return, and not a moped hehe) and just get the bullshit out of the way, like one of my writings said it just makes everything so damn easier.

i was just wondering...
whats it like to hold someone in your arms that cares about you
whats it like to cuddle with someone
whats it like to feel special
whats it like to feel lucky
whats it like to feel wanted
whats it like to be wanted
whats it like to be lucky
whats it like to be special
i was just wondering...
...cause i forgot

time to vent:

i'm going to start a new tv show,
its going to be called the 'worlds biggest bitch'
and its going to be staring, my mom

the home channel, tlc, or like any of the other tv networks that like to do reality tv shows or the alike should do something like the worlds most dumb stupid fucked up bitchy mother, and just follow my mom around and tape her... that might be interesting, it will be like american choppers with the dad and son allways fighting around the bikes, but here it would be me and her fitting around all her shit that she never does anything with.

she wants to clean the house she says and complains to me that the house isn't good. ok fine i do my shit and boom its clean, all her shit is still the same, or she'll do little things that doesn't do shit for the rest, case in point her office, that litterly has a semi trail from the door to the computer and thats fucking it, there is space around the keyboard but not much for typing but on both sides there are hills and mounds of shit, just random stuff all over the pace oh and dont forget the big ass trash barrel that is in her office, cause the little one just was too much of a bother to keep on emptying with all the food shit she brings up there. next thing she would possibly clean is her room, yeah like anyone sees that. next would be the bathroom, joy she put her shit away.. wow that is untill the next morning when she has to get ready for work...

and the best thing was today, didn't do shit to the basement cause perhaps get rid of that shit down there.. and we can put some other shit from up stairs down there.. but no, she goes and fucking takes off the pain of the hand rail out side of the front door and then is going to repaint it at some point... wtf?

oh btw i did the kitchen today the part of it that might stay that way and the rest is her shit... i need to fucking get out of here, anyone want a room mate?

i dont want to be home
i dont want to be lonely
i dont want to be by my self
i dont want to live here any more
i dont want to be single any more
i dont want to be the only one in my bed
i dont want to feel this way any more
i dont want to feel out ranked
i dont want to feel out of place
i dont want to be in last place
i dont want to be the friend any more
i dont want to be that great guy

i dont want any of it,
im sick of it all

for a relationship to be a good one, there will be some pros and cons with in that but to use the term its self, its a relation between the 2 things, the good and the bad that make the whole

i was cleaning my room today and found a lil collection of fortunes, from fortune cookies. they are as follows in no particular order:

Be most affectionate today
lucky numbers 10, 20, 25, 34, 40, 45

Don't be afraid to take that big step
lucky numbers 12, 17, 19, 33, 36, 38

You may attend a party where strange customs prevail
lucky numbers 6, 14, 17, 19, 22, 25

Passionate new romances appears in your life when you least expect it
lucky numbers 17, 27, 24, 25, 32, 38

You will soon discover how truly fortunate you really are
lucky numbers 21, 43, 5, 36, 17, 6

Smile to others, honesty and friendship bring you fortune
lucky numbers 39, 42, 17, 2, 28, 30

Your mind is filled with new ideas
lucky numbers 23, 14, 38, 47, 22, 6

You are heading in the right direction
daily numbers 7 6 0
lotto six numbers 13 29 38 44 3 8

Have a beautiful day
daily numbers 0 7 9
lotto six numbers 31 3 46 44 12 37

You are a person of culture
daily numbers 9 2 9
lotto six numbers 13 20 43 31 39 1

Listen not to vain words of empty tongue
daily numbers 9 3 7
lotto six numbers 38 19 15 24 4 5

Your exotic ideas lead you to many exciting new adventures!

i need to get drunk like that more often i think...

hey ip68-14-156-56.ri.ri.cox.net who are you and why do you come to my site so damn often?

01. First grade teacher's name:hell if i remember
02. Last words you said: want some water? (to my cat)
-03. blank
04. Last person you hugged:um amber a while ago i belive
05. Last thing you laughed at:amy 06. Last time you said "I dont remember": tonight when asked where something was
07. Last time you cried:cried, prob a year ago, teary um a couple months ago?
08. What are you wearing? under shirt, pj shorts 09. What color socks are you wearing: none 10. What's under your bed: big framed black and white photographs and dust 11. What time did you wake up today: firs time 7.10 then up for a while and then back to bed to get up at 11.50
12. Current taste: water
13. Current hair: blackish and short
14. Current love: wish i had one that would love back
15. Current annoyance: customers
16. Current longing: to be with someone
17. Current desktop background: flcl
18. Current worry: not so much a worry, but when will i find someone
19. Current hate: living at home
20. Current favorite article of clothing: my think aero cargo shorts from 2 years ago they rock!
21. Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: smile, eyes, laugh
22. Last CD that you listened to: Neon Genesis Evangelion Symphony OST CD 1 and 2
23. Favorite place to be: in the arms of someone who wants to be with me (been way to long)
24. Least favorite place: dentist? or anyplace i'm not having fun
25. Time you wake up in the morning: when ever i need to get up or wake up
26. If you could play pink and pink: wtf is pink and pink...
28. Do you believe in an afterlife?: perhaps
29. How tall are you: 5'8
30. Current favorite word/saying: "thank you, and goodnight!"
31. Favorite book: um... the F Word
32. Favorite season: summer, but not when its fucking humid out
33. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to:my self at least once every year, or perhaps Robin
34. One person from your past that you wish to never see again:um i dont know
35. Do you go to a college or a university: been there done that
36. What is your career going to be like: i'm going to have another... then porn star
37. How many kids do you want? at least 1

*HAVE YOU EVER...*

38. Had a pet that you killed? no
39. Said "I love you" and meant it: yea
40. Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc:wtf is this mortal combat?
41. Been to New York: y
42. Been to Florida: n
43. Been to California: y
44. Been to Hawaii: n
45. Been to Mexico: n
46. Been to China: n
47. Have you ever met anyone off the net?: y
48. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: yeah or soon after
49. Had sex with a friend?: none who were friends first
50. Had sex with an ex's friend: no
51. Went out with someone and regretted it?: hahaha i think everone would tell me yes

*RANDOM*

52. Do you have a crush on someone: used to, and it still bothers me a bit
53. What book are you reading now?: this stupid thing
54. Worst feeling in the world: loneliness
55. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: if the alarm wakes me up, then to shut that damn thing off, if not then what time is it
56. How many rings before you answer: as soon as i see who it is
57. Future daughter's name: i knew this at one point but i forgot
58. Future son's name: i knew this at one point but i forgot
59. What do you sleep with: fans, by me self
60. Favorite TV show: Family Guy, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, and a bunch others
61. Wish were here: no comment
62. Tattoos: yeah mom would kill me, not that matters any but none
63. Piercings: thought about one very seriously at one time but none

*THE EXTRA STUFF*

64. Do you do drugs: mmmmmmm drugs... no
65. Do you drink: mmmmm drinking... yes
66. What toothpaste do you use?: um crest white i think
67. What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner: shampoo, redken for men, conditioner none
68. What are you most scared of: a couple of things
69. What clothes do you sleep in: my boxerbriefs and undershirt
70. Who is the last person that called you: mel left me a voice mail
71. Where do you want to get married: um a forest?
72. If you could change anything about yourself what would that be? a couple of things but then i wouldn't be my self so this question would be void
73. Who do you really hate: hmm not many but yeah gw jr is a dumbass
74. Been In Love: Yes
75. On time or always late: depends usually early
76. Do you have a job: had one since i looked for one
77. Do you like being around people: y
78. Best feeling in the world: being wanted
79. Do you have any stuffed animals: yeah in the house somewhere from back in the day
80. Are you a health freak: n
81. Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: many types
82. Do you want someone you don't have?:wtf?
83. Are you lonely right now: yea
84. Ever afraid you'll never get married: only a tiny bit
85. Do you want to get married: sure
86. Do you want kids?: y

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

87. Cried:n
88. Bought Something: y
89. Gotten Sick: n
90. Sang: y
91. Said I Love You: n
93. Met Someone: ? out side of work no
94. Moved On: wtf? n
95. Talked To Someone: again wtf.
96. Had A Serious Talk: n
97. Missed Someone: y
98. Hugged Someone: n
99. Yelled at Someone: n
100. Kissed someone: n
101. Had sex?: ... n

hey have i ever talked about how my mom is a fucking stupid bitch?
oh only like a 1000 times?
yeah i thought so...

well a not so little post for tonight:
i got my car new license plates and inspected today after its been expired since jan 2004, yeah i know i rock :). the reason for the plates is cause one fell off some where and in order for an inspection you need 2 in mass...

also today i was in a very good mood from all the great car stuff that went well, had some yummy chicken sandwich from panara for lunch and things were going well.. that is till jen did one of the 51 things that girls dont know about guys, (the one that i made up my self) "don't talk about another guy that has an interest in you or how you have an interest in another guy when in the presence of a guy whom you know likes or liked you". in other words dont say how an actual cute guy hit in you when i'm standing right next to you engaged in the same convo with you and another person...and after the other person replied with did you get his number i removed my self from the situation upon further emotional damage...that shot the good vibe for the most part down to about 15% but i was about to bring it up to around 35% by the end of the night.

oh and i'm prob going to be doing a site redesign very soon i have a layout that like but i'm going to be modding it from what i have now... now this isn't a guarantee of anything soon... who knows i just might get in the mood tomorrow or something and do it all in one fast swoop. and i might be apt to do it tonight too, that is if i didn't have to be at work at 9 in the morning and when i'm going to be going to bed prob around 2.30am after watching battelstar on sci-fi (sweet show btw and starbuck (who is a chick in the new ver) is fucking hot!)

sometimes i feel as if my life is mimicking an anime series
about a boy and girls whom he knows and the relationships around them
perhaps life isn't mimicking anime
perhaps its just anime mimicking life
the one i'm living

from an e-mail i got that i found particularly true
things about guys that girls DONT know:

Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize- how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

Girls are guys' weaknesses.

Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

Try to be as straightforward as possible.

A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

And you know that "existence of God" thing that I had trouble understanding before?
I think I'm starting to understand it now.
Maybe, just maybe, it's a concept that's similar to a zero in mathematics.
In other words, it's a symbol that denies the absence of meaning,
the meaning that's necessitated by the delineation of one system from another.
In analog, thats God,
in digital its zero.

it sucks when your pet gets sick
it sucks even more when he doesn't like it when you try to help him
it sucks even more then that when you know things aren't good

but you hope for the best, do what you can, and see where that takes you.

_TRANSPORT:47 by optica
We all live in a world of interconnection...
a world of continuous dynamicism...
a world of perpetual and neverending information transport.

In order for our socitey to thrive, we must communicate.
New ideas, concepts, and feelings all transverse the globe daily - eventually reaching a recipient who will then be given the gift of understanding.
Comprehension. Oppourtunity.

Not only does information travel, but we must travel. Often, to communicate, we must transverse long distances ourselves, playing the very roll of information itself.

We are the signal.
The roads are our wires.
To me beauty is not soley in the form that lies in front of you, but the roll it plays in the ultimate and ever shifting schematic of reality. "

so i got a fortune cookie the other day with the message "A life long friend, shall soon be made." and my question to that is, who is this going to be. a girl or a guy, and if its a girl then is this going to be the love of my life or just another female friend to add to my long list.

a little something else for me to think about i guess... like tonight how nice of a night it is, and i thought i might go for a walk around the block or something, but then i thought i'd be nice if i had someone to do that with, to hold has with as we walked... and then i closed the door and went up to my room to write this..

i'm just sick of this, what ever "this" is. the "this" that people have been looking for ever since they discovered "it". i'm also bothered by not having a lot of friends, now i dont know if i'd want an over abundant amount. but more then the ones i have now. perhaps more local ones. i dunno... i love the few close friends i have, and its less then i can cound on one hand (yes i have all my fingers heh). i'm just annoyed with things how they are now. and most of all i'm sick of my mother.

a repost from april 9th, followed by something new
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the thoughts in my head
stem from the loneliness of my bed

confused is the heart
it doesn't know where to end or start

friends all around
some happiness could be found

it happened once before
and it was sworn never again no more

time went slow and fast
feelings have lingered into the past

someone new
came out of the blue

it was ended with a sigh
a quick two months went by

people came and went
but no effort was needed or spent

then someone new arrived
for so long i've been deprived

where will this go
i dont seem to be in the know

the time doesn't seem right
i'll just give in and probably loose another fight

these words have been said
from the thoughts in my head
----------------------------

well I didn't give in
I stood up and gave it a shot

I didn't lose nor did I win
a relationship I didn't get but a friend I still got

those words in my head
the thoughts that I've said

the key to my protection
a missed vote for the election

another experienced gained
another lesson learned

reasons were explained
a new direction turned

happiness comes in many forms
and sometimes you don't get them in the norms

loneliness also comes and goes
and that's all right too I suppose

but in the end everything works out
it's part of life to find what it's all about

why is it that the older people get the stupider, and more annoying they become. isn't all that knowledge and experience that they have acquired over the years supposed to account for something? for instance how the fuck do you not know how air flow in a room works? not even knowing what intake and out-take refers to.

this is only part of the hell that i have to deal with every day living with my mother.

please help

Journey
DON'T STOP BELIEVIN'

Just a small town girl, livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill,
everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice,
just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

(chorus)

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to the feelin'
Streetlight people"

so it is done
I've given her my key
my protection is gone

the package has been sent
all she has to do is open it
with the key she can unlock
my heart and emotions lay inside

afraid of what might happen
with the knowledge that will be gained
will it make things different between us
or will it stay the same

if things go in a different direction
where will that take us
with it make us closer
or make us farther apart

for I am a lonely person
wanting to be with her
to have that protection
given by her

and in return
I'll give her anything
I'll give her the space
I'll give her everything

trust is a hard thing to give
but you have to take a chance
to see what might come of it
what will happen and what won't

love on the other hand
is so easy to give
but to take it back
is so very hard

I'll treat you right
do you no wrongs
talk to you about what's going on
and anything that's on your mind

I've been told I'm not like most guys
and I like to believe that it's true
but that hasn't helped me much in the past
and now I hope that it might start to pay off

for I know your needs
and I know you know mine
I won't be like the others
I'll be yours, and could you be mine

they say let things happen
but they don't happen unless something happens
something happens to start or end something else
have it be the first acknowledgment that you like someone
or have it be the "good" bye during a break up when it isn't good at all

letting things happen works out great in theory
it works out great in the movies and in stories
it even sometimes works out in life
or at least we hope it to
but how do people go about things
in a indirect way to let that thing happen
when you are letting that thing happen between you and another person
they are doing direct things to indirectly make something else happen

it's a messed up kind of thing
but its the way that life takes you
from hills and valleys
to the highest peeks, and the lowest lows

but in all it is a good thing
even if it seems like a bad thing
when it ends it seems like the worst thing in the world
but after that everything starts anew

it is another chance at something else
another path in the woods a new direction to go in
the past is behind you and you can't turn around
time pushes you forward towards that something new

and when you move forward
things come to pass you by
take a chance to look around
you never know what might happen if you let it

i'm scared of what will be
afraid of what's going on with me
alone by my self with out her company

wanting her by my side
with her I wish to confide
together we can be each others guide

the space she wants I'll give her
and with that I won't deter
just hoping for a relationship to occur

my hopes wishes and dreams
just a foggy view it seems
hoping this work isn't in extremes

the lonely breeze enters
this thing called love, who were the inventors
tell me so they can be my mentors

I AM A DORK, I AM A NERD, AND PROUD OF IT!

last night i installed my first upgrade to my computer, hardware wise that is. this is the monster computer that i purchased for back in april '01. a monster computer that cost $4,248 that is. but it is now just going out of main streem, with its 80 gig hard drive, 512 ram, 64mb DDR NVIDIA GeFource2 ULTRA 4x AGP with DVI Video Card, 17 inch flat screen, dvd rom drive, cd burner drive, 250 internal zip drive, turtle beach santa cruz DSP sound card, altec lansing THX certified ADA885 doulby digital speakers with sub, and a dell digital audio receiver (that i never used)

what did i install might you ask, well a nice big 300 gig hard drive, since i filled up my lil 80 giger some how (i'm thinking too much clip art n such on the computer, that and doom 3). i opened up the case and with my handy can of air, blasted away the tons and tons of dust that had been blocking the intake vent, the 2 out take fans, drive bays, and just everything inside. it looked like one of those haunted houses you seen in the movies with all those spider webs all over the place, well same thing here but this was dust.

so far i've moved 10.2 gigs over to the new drive, it seems like an endless void to be filled with what ever i want. now i'm thinking to my self, maybe its time to start downloading "freebies" once again :)

some interesting news
it seems changed are the views
things might be going in my direction
should i start to take down my protection

i'm afraid to let her in
to let her see the tenderness of my skin
how easily the outer layer can crack
from a simple word, a most devastating attack

but i want her to know
how special she is like virgin snow
the feelings i feel for her
but in return will she concur

this debate i have within myself
i wish i could find some magical elf
to tell me the answer i seek
or just a slight little peek

i'm just not sure
as i try to find this cure
in these writings i write
during the dark lonely night

why doesn't the good guy ever win
why doesn't he ever get the girl
the good guy who never committed a sin

she probably knows that he likes her
she has to know that he likes her
its obvious to every one else

perhaps she likes playing games
perhaps she is the one that likes to be the winner
forget the good guy, the prize goes to the one who is the sinner

he tries to forget about her
he tries not to have those feelings
its just like what keeps you alive, you just can't stop breathing

somethings are just wrong if you know the entire story.

	i'm sooo moving to some place cold, that or a place that has a/c. this weather is fucking ridiculous!

the smell of the air reminds me the time kat and i went to boston on a whim stayed up all night walking all over the town, messing with the late night djs at radio stations, taking random pictures with the "digi cam", adopting a plastic child left on the street, watching the sun not come up do to crazy fog in the park, going to dunkin' donuts at seeing cops, and the ride back home in the late morning...
ah memories...

wow 3 hits on tuesday and nothing since... but one of them was from the far reaches of the interweb as it once was known...

... remember this?

why is it that when ever i have a day off, the night before i dont have anything to do, there for i end up going to bed a bit earlier then i would normally and not as tiered as i should be. and what is the result from that, be waking up at the ass crack of the morning wide awake. wtf!!!! so now like my day is shot cause i'm going to be out of it for the rest of the day when i try to get back to sleep like later on in the day... grr...

in other news happy happy, i talked to kat last night :)

1.Who is most beautiful person you know on the inside and out?
- hmm not sure about that one

2. If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be?
- my perfect match

3. How many times during the day do you think about sex?
- when don't i think about it?

4. Which relationship appeals to you more, a wild passionate one, or a quiet calm one?
- hmm only quiet after the passion is over...well for the 5 min before we start up again.

5. What is off limits for you in the bedroom?
- in the bedroom, or how about any where else should be the question... i dunno farm animals, and i have an exit only sign posted

6. What is your favorite thing to do in the bedroom?
- sex, get a way from people, play on the computer, listen to music

7. Do you flip out easily?
- not usually

8. Would you rather your partner be a tad overweight or a tad underweight?
- define a tad?... i'd say underweight, cause more fun can be had... but on the other hand overweight, more fun can be had to try to work that off :)

9. Miller lite or Coors lite if you had to choose?
- miller

10. Do you still have feelings for your ex?
- not of her but the thing about being in a relation ship... and she was a nice piece of ass..

11. If you could kill anyone right now, who would you choose?
- hold on let me get my list... i think i left it at work..

12. What color of hair most appeals to you on the opposite sex?
- red, black, and the others

13. Ever filmed you and a partner having sex?
- yup.. .her idea

14. What is the best T.V. show of all time!
- oh man... most of them are on cartoon network

15. If you could marry anyone in the world who would it be and why?
- that person from question number 2 and there for the answer from number 1

16. If you had to choose, would you rather die from drowning, or burning?
- hmm i guess i could go the anikin way

17. What one person from your past would you like to talk to?
- my self just before highschool to let me know what the deal is.

18. Do you own a sex toy?
- a toy.. hahahahah

19. What do you think of George W. Bush?
- what do i think of you for asking me this?

20. If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would it be and why?
- out with question number 1, 2 and 15

21. If you had to travel for 21 days and could only bring 5 things, what would you bring?
- number 20's answers, my cell phone, and can't think of anything that i wouldn't be able to just get where ever i'm going

22. What's your favorite trait of the opposite sex?
- laugh, and smile, eyes, butt, tits, legs

23. Do you like to give or receive oral sex?
- give

24. Who's your favorite actor?
- me when i'm working

25. Who's your favorite actress?
- anyone who's good

26. Favorite candy bar?
- Snickers - word

27. Favorite sex position?
- Doggy style - word again... but any will do

28. Favorite soda?
- cherry coke

29. Is OJ guilty?
- only if there is too much pulp

30. Have you ever had sex with a friend from myspace?
- ... i have

i'm fucking sick of this.

what might that be you ask? well my mother.

i'm sick of her trying to fucking guilt trip me into making me feel bad when i actually go out and do something with my friends. case in point. the last 2 days, friday night and saturday. earier in the week i had told her that i'm going out to dinner with my friend mel who i actually haven't hung out with in a very long time. a very nice change of pace then going out with my mother let me tell you... anyway i didn't know what time she was going to call me, but it was going to be after i got home for work, so to shorten this story, mother was like what she didn't call, after she went out (to do what ever the fuck that was) and saw me sitting at the kittchen table watching tv,i'm like no she called and she is going to call me back after she is getting ready. mother didn't seem to happy about that but she kept that to her self.. somewhat.. then as i'm leavnig to go out she's like where are you 2 going to eat, i said tea pot and responce was if your not doing anything afterwords bring me home something... now the translation for that is i'm not going to tell you what i want or ask you anything specific like that, i'm just going to nibble on some yogurt or something and sit my ass where i always do on the computer in the aol jewish singles/western mass chat rooms and wait to see if you bring me home anything.

so i brought her home 1/2 of this huge thing of food that i had got for my self. and she wasn't able to have it then cause it wasn't cooked enough for her.. so i put it in the frig and i'm assuming with the soy sauce on the kitchen table yesterday that she had it for dinner last night.

on to last night, i called her up like 2 hours before i was to leave work telling her that i'm going out after work with jen, and then she was like ok.. ending the conversation so i'm like ok. and hung up the phone. went out with jen to dinner then a walk around northampton, had a great time (thanks again) and then came home. mom was still up and sitting at her computer asked where i went n stuff, and a not so happy "thats nice" was her reply...my responce was nothing and walked away. so today i had a nice lil 7am shift on a sunday morning to do the floor set at work . mother and i had made no plans at to do something. i came home at 4:30, she asked me how was work, i said busy and i'm very sleepy, went into my room changed and was laying down on the bed with the fan on me cause it was very warm today and i was beat. she knocks on my door, opens it asked what i have planed, said i dont know i wanna get some rest, and she gets all pissed off about not going out to eat and stuff.

so in short, excuse me for going out with friends and having a live, and not being some loser who hangs out with his mom all the time and constantly goes out to dinner with her, cause apparently with have nothing to cook with, even if the kitchen is filled with cooking things...

there i'm done venting

i was going to write tonight how i haven't heard from my friend kat, as i mentioned the other day. how the last time we hung out (maybe 2 months ago?) she gave me this photo of the 2 of us that we took together in a photobooth up in northampton. i asked her why is she giving me this, she said the had a copy and i took it at that.

so the past couple of days there has been a thought that has been floating around in my head... the thought of what if that was some sort of good bye from her to me, something to remember her by, something to remember us by. and that was what i was going to talk about tonight, but i have something brighter then that to talk about.

i sent her a message on myspace, since i noticed that she was on it the other day. and i sent her somewhat of a sad message asking where she had gone. and tonight i thought i'd check myspace if she had been on it as of late. and in fact i had a message from her, saying she is around but very antisocial. so i wrote back giving her a brief rundown of what i've just said here. and what crazy thoughts i start thinking of when i dont hear from her.

so yeah a happy ending to an other wise sad post. :)

and a side note, i've had dreams before about being in a romantic situation with someone but never actually completing, such as a kiss or the alike. but a dream the other night we kissed. but the thing about it was that it was more like a real life type of thing, not a dream. i've had what some could say were visions of things that have happened before they happen, but i never know when or how and such till it is happening or just after it happened that i'll be able to say whats next, or remember when i first knew of this... anyway, its what the person said just before we she kissed me that makes it a bit odd, cause its something she would say before she would kiss me, and not something that my mind would have made up. i kind of hope that it was only a dream, because i dont know how i'd sort things out if it were to become true... things would change, things that i once hoped for, and things i also once feared...

apparently aeropostale has something against Wyoming. I can see why they wouldn't have stores in Alaska and Hawaii, but come on...

so what do you know, i was going to talk about tonight, how we went to the strip club to celebrate jays 21st b-day, and how i dont usualy go to strip clubs for a couple of reasons, but i went tonight. and during the night i thought of my ex kelly a couple of times. namely cause of the strippers on stage reminded me of her. not saying that she was trashy but body types n such. i was also going to talk about how i miss her, now i know thats crazy for me to say that, but its not. its not that i miss her persay its what we "had". had as in what 2 people in a relation ship have. the closeness of each other to hold on to, the warmth, the security, the look in their eyes, and all of that. and i guess what leads me into some of the reasons why i dont like strip clubs besides its a waste of money (if you're not the one on stage), its a world of false dreams. the girls who are cute, that just want your money as much as you might think that they have an insterest in you, they dont. its just whats in the pocket.

thus brings me to another thing, i dont like how i feel when i'm in a strip club is one of the main reasons i dont go. its not that its a sleazy atmosphere or anything, but its all of that falseness and what goes with it. i saw 2 girls who i found attractive as in date worthy (mind you by looks alone) and what was going through my mind as i saw them do all sorts of leg contortions and ass slappings and nipple pinchings, is who are they really, that is the person off the stage. what do they like to do, what are their hopes and dreams, and why did they get into stripping.

so back to my ex kelly, just as i was about to get ready to talk about tonight, i saw that she was on my buddy list. and she is like never on. but some how tonight i knew that i was going to talk to her (damn that 6th sense of mine) anyways, we chatted for a bit, and i was almost immediately let down by her saying that she is high, not a big surprise there, but she has a kid now and i'd hope that she be more responcible (more so then getting knocked up at 19 by the boyfriend after me) but anyways again, she told me that emma, (the baby) is just starting to crawl and that she has the most beautiful eyes, and since that gave me a flash back to when i'd just look into kellys eyes when i'd be tracing her body or her face or when i'd just hold her in my arms, i decided to be generous and tell her that, emma's eyes must take after her mothers. that was the gist of the conversation with her, oh and how its late and she needs all the sleep that she can get, but she'll be on tomorrow night n such and we can talk then. - i hope not

but back to this kelly type thing, i'm sick of being lonely i truly am. i haven't had a girlfriend since her almost 2 years ago now, granted i've had some flings here and there, but nothing worth mentioning. and the people whom i'm interested in dont seem to know what they want. and that just makes things dandy in my department. and i get to the point with that to say just fuck it, but when you see this person almost every day for a couple hours its those little things that attracted me to her in the first place that keep that thought of her in my head... damn her eyes and smile.

and the people that do seem to have an interest in me, dont have the interest back towards them. eh thanks, but no thanks, not my type.

so tonight as i'm typing this, jay is most likely passed out due to a great 21 party, aaron and amy are getting things out of their system, and i'm here typing away recalling whats wrong with my life, and the alike.

speaking of whats wrong, one of my good friends kat, who i used to be very close with hasn't gotten back to me after a bunch of calls to her and e-mails. this is kinda pissing me off, to say what the fuck, whats going on with that, and why hasn't she called back... grr

so in general a good night tonight, had fun, got inebriated (dont know why but i love that word when i'v been drinking) got to reminisce about past things.

oh and this is for amy since she likes it when people talk about her, it makes her feel famous, that i've never seen any body rock leather pants like she did tonight, an ass spaning good time (for aarons hands only) :)

tonight starts my mini vaca... i dont have to go back to work untill wed. of next week. how sweet is that? things planed to do in no particular order:
- clean my room
- jay's birthday party
- boston with mel
- finish cleaning my room
- relax
- have tons of fun

you know its a messed up world when you have shoes like show biz moms and dads where they have their little kids dressed up as adults and shown off like toys to some type of messed up beauty pageant. along those same lines, is "model galleries" of the same type of things. such as internet galleries of these kids posing as models, but the poses are such that they are the cute images we all see every sunday in the ads for say walmart, target, sears, toys r us, or any other type of store that uses kids to model their kid department of clothing and the alike. no these sites are more like your average adult model site, where everything has a double meaning in the shot. how so you might ask? well when you have 2 images, one of an adult model, and another of a child one and they both look exactly the same, same makeup same outfit and same amount of 95% of their body showing as well as most of their ass and in their panties thats fucked up, major fucked up.

anyways thats just pisses me off that there is these kind of things that pass off as art n such, and that shit isn't art...

speaking of fucked up... try doing a google image search of "fucked up" see what you get.

wow talking about old friends. just got off the phone with one of my oldest friends. who is going to have a kid soon. crazy man. well one thing is definitely for sure, is that she is going to be a milf. hehe

well with my new toy i get to have custom wall paper on it and the alike... so where do i find these custom wall paper, on the internet of course (free mind ya) but there is one catch most or none of the images are at the right resolution for my phone. it is distorted or stretched in some way.

so after finding out what the screen resolution of my phone is i said fuck it and started to make my own wallpapers, and after 7 tries i got it right... stupid toolbars on the top and bottom of the phones display that aren't transparent but i delt. so here is the wall paper i currently have an original work of art...

new toy

so i was thinking about site redesign once again, and was going through my (massive) collection of clip art/images and looking at them and i found an image from Neon Genesis Evangelion where Shinji (one of the kids) is sitting on a bench looking depressed and i thought wow that'd be a good image for the site.. then i thought well i dont want the site to have this depressing feeling about it, despite my current mood n such.

so thats my random thought for tonight

On tuesday i got my newest shipment from thinkgeek.com and what a great bunch of stuff i got this time. i do have to say that the ring thing is the sweetest thing i have ever bought from them... well that and some bawls so now here is the complete list of the things i have gotten from thinkgeek.com cause i'm sure you all care :)

Caffeine Candy Sampler v2.0
Home Sweet Home sticker
I'll kick your ass...
MP3 - sticker
Power Symbol - Black
WWW - sticker
You are dumb v2.0 - Black

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Acrobots
CanDroid
The ThinkGeek Monkey - Favorite Website
ThinkGeek 'Best Of' Caffeine Sampler v2.5
Umph Energy Tablets

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/dev/blanket
Case o' Bawls - BAWLS Regular
Will Work For Bandwidth - License Plate Holder - Black

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Bawls Mints - High Caffeine Candy
Caffeine Hooded Sweatshirt - Denim
Caffeine Molecule - Navy
Case o' Bawls - BAWLS Regular
Fueled By BAWLS Tshirt - Black
Green Laser Pointer II - Silver
I'm blogging this. - Black

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/dev/pillow - Two Pillows
Acrobots
BAWLS Case badge
Case o' Bawls - BAWLS Regular
Forever Flashlight Dynamo
Geek Awareness Bracelet
Ring Thing
Smart Mass Thinking Putty - Alien Ooze
Utili-Key 6-in-1 Tool
Will Work For Bandwidth - License Plate Holder - Black
WTF? Hooded Sweatshirt - Smoke

no one to talk to
no one calling my name
its starting to get to me
its starting to make me feel lame

its just not the same
being by ones self
there isn't anyone to blame
just the name of the game

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

the rain falls
as i sit here
i breathe in deeply
hoping that the smell will linger
the sound of drops falling
surrounded by fog and darkness

thats it no more
i saw the door
i went for it by my self
i did it for my health

i could see what you could not
its a good thing, my heart i still got
that i didn't give it away
to you that other day

yes friends we still are
dont worry its a scratch, not a scar
just try not to keep bringing him up in conversation
as you did it during our date with out any hesitation

what are you thinking
what will you say
are you going to take me
or tell me to go away

myself i dont know
my thoughts they go to and fro
please tell me so i can figure things out
so there isn't anything left, not even a little doubt

its not that i'm dwelling on this issue
nor should you, no one should be crying or need a tissue
its just that i feel like i should be moving on
so what is it, am i staying or get going and begone

i sit here thinking about relationships past
how they never got started, sputtered or just went to fast
i feel lonely being by my self
my heart is starting to ache from its declining health

she needs to make a choice
listen to that inner voice
let it tell you what path to follow
and not leave your heart cold and hollow

for it needs to be said
cause i no longer want to be led
my actions misconstrued
from my hears foggy view

let me know the decision
look deep in side your self for the vision
you know what is right
i won't put up a fight

if the choice isn't in my favor
i won't need a savior
all i need is for you to continue to be my friend
nothing will change for us from now till the end

and what if the strings of fate are pulled towards my direction
you see the whole person, inside and out, silliness and imperfection
then i consider my self very lucky
happy, peachy keen, and just ducky

i might not know where to go from there
i wouldn't want to give you a scare
one day at a time taking it slow
hoping that this relationship will continue to grow

she talks about him
but doesn't know my feelings within
how sickly it makes me feel
but i smile and laugh
god how i wish i could break this seal

she lies to her self about her situation
"i'm free to date n such" she says despite her infatuation
how might i know this you might ask
well she brings him up during regular conversation
chit chat, gibber gabber, and doing some small task

so why do i linger on this person
one can't do much about the feelings that they have
they just spring up out of the blue
so say what you might, i still have some hope
and i might as well be also labeled some sort of dope

it would all be easier
if we didn't have to go round about ways
it would even could cut the time in half
to months, weeks, maybe even days

cut to the chase with your emotions
it will alleviate this stupid commotion
if you like me, and i like you
lets do something
hang out, go to a movie
just us two
and if i like you and you dont like me
its easy to say it, just do it, can't you see
yes feelings might be hurt
like i'm less then dirt
but thats how the game is played
the heart is just a muscle
a piece of meat to be filleted

we can continue to be each others friend
let those feeling i have dispend
it will take time yes
but i've done this before
and my heart, well it's still sore
it takes time, picking it up off the floor

( ) I've Never Been Drunk
(x) I've Never Smoked Pot
( ) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
(x) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
( ) I've Never trusted the opposite sex.
(x) I've Never Crashed A Friend's Car
( ) Ive Never Been In A Taxi
( ) I've Never Been In Love
(x) I've Never Had Sex In Public
(x) I've Never Done Cocaine
(x) I've Never Been Fired
(x) I've Never Had Group Intercourse
( ) I've Never Snuck Out Of My Parent's House
( ) I've Never Been Tied Up
( ) I've Never Regretted Having Sex With Someone
(x) I've Never Been Arrested
( ) I've Never Made Out With A Stranger
( ) I've Never Stolen Something From My Job
( ) I've Never Gone On A Blind Date
( ) I've Never Had A Crush On A Teacher
(x) I've Never Been To Europe
(x) I've Never Skipped School
(x) I've Never Slept With A Co-Worker
(x) I've Never Had Sex At The Office
(x) I've Never Been Married
(x) I've Never Been Divorced
( ) I've Never Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week
( ) I've Never Posed Nude..
(x) I've Never Gotten Someone Drunk Just To Have Sex With Them
(x) I've Never Killed Anyone
( ) I've Never Received Scars From My Sex Partner
(x) I've Never Eaten Sushi
(x) I've Never Had Sex At A Friend's House While They Were Throwing A Party
(x) I've Never Had Sex In A Dressing Room
( ) I've Never Flashed Anyone.
( ) I've Never Met Anyone From Online.
( ) I've Never been hurt by the opposite sex

so less then a month after i launch the 2.0 i'm thinking about redesigning the site again. i think i went the simple way out with just going with black. it does make everything a hell of a lot easier to do when working with iframes and layout n such. i guess its just the color scheme that i dont like, well the black that is, i like the blue tones and how everything works, but since i did this site i found out a much better way to make the last layout of digi (see about). not saying that i'm going to go back to that layout, but i did kinda like it.

things might be in the works, well see...

A is for - Age: 25
B is for - Boyfriend/Girlfriend: not currently, hoping
C is for - Career in future: perhaps still retail / web design, but eventually working with mell at her store.
D is for - Dad's name: Jeffery
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: my camera most definitely
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: that new one by system of a down
G is for - Guy/Girls you've kissed: only girls, only really ment it a few times
H is for - Hometown: holyoke ma, longmeadow ma, holyoke ma,
I is for - Instruments you play: my cd player and winamp
J is for - Job title: assistant store manager
K is for - Kids: i like to think i'm still one
L is for - Living arrangement: eh with mom, wanting to get out.
M is for - Mom's name: Shari
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: hmm like sleep or sex? cause there is a difference
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: dont know when i was a baby but i knew that was a few, but to current memory last i had a nice vaca there for 3 days 2 nights
P is for - Phobia[s]: sometimes heights, sometimes spiders, sometimes my feelings
Q is for - Quote you like: my own:
the choice is yours
its in your hand
cause i'm just a little grain
a tiny piece in all this sand
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: friendships or romantic
S is for - Sexual position: just one? aww man
T is for - Time you wake up: depends on what i have to do that day
U is for - Unique trait(s): my self, random pieces of somewhat useful information
V is for - Vegetable you love: peas and mashed potatoes
W is for - Worst habit: nail bitting?
X is for - X-rays you've had: ankle, teeth, knee i think too
Y is for - Yummy food you make: anything i make is yummy
Z is for - Zodiac sign: Aquarius

why is it that i put my self into these positions to get hurt? its not like i do it purposely its just that it just happens like that. i never just kinda like someone. if i happen to find someone who i'm attracted to for a g/f then one thing happens and then another and bam here i am with somewhat of a "kat" situation all of a sudden.

grr

something i should have posted yesterday but didn't...

its amazing how one person can make you happy, afraid, scared, and a bunch of other emotions all in a blink of an eye. yeah well its amazing as i said.

so after trying to make plans for a while and to no avail, i tried a "so doing anything tonight?" and was able to get a dinner engagement. engagment, not a date, cause well i dont know if it was an official date in her book. but in mine, it was :)

she looked and smelled great. dinner was as well great in one of the restaurants Northampton has to offer, Spoleto. did a little walking around over to Faces, and then went to go get ice cream, but as usual it was backed so we opted not to.

that was the gist of the night with her, not to mention good conversation between us i thought. but yeah, dont know where this will go from here, i do have my hopes but i'm keeping them tied down, so they dont get to high, and come falling back to the ground heh.

why is it something new
reminds you of something old
that something new
a story that has yet to unfold

the music starts to play again
the familiar sound in your heart
do you want it to happen
will you make it start

the choice is yours
its in your hand
cause i'm just a little grain
a tiny piece in all this sand

the signals sent
are mysterious in nature
are we just friends
or can i date her

people who are depressed
people who get high
people who smile
people who want to die

people who are single
people who sit by the phone
people who mingle
people who are alone

people who are sad
people who are happy
people who are mad
people who are sappy

people who listen
people who see
people who have a mission
people who want to be

the thoughts in my head
stem from the loneliness of my bed

confused is the heart
it doesn't know where to end or start

friends all around
some happiness could be found

it happened once before
and it was sworn never again no more

time went slow and fast
feelings have lingered into the past

someone new
came out of the blue

it was ended with a sigh
a quick two months went by

people came and went
but no effort was needed or spent

then someone new arrived
for so long i've been deprived

where will this go
i dont seem to be in the know

the time doesn't seem right
i'll just give in and probably loose another fight

these words have been said
from the thoughts in my head

things i'm sick of:
being lonely
being single
living at home
my mother being annoying
all of the shit in this house thats taking up space
and fucking internet/computers not working right, wtf

ok so the things that happened today so far:
got up early to take a shower before i get a hair cut
as i'm ready to leave, i some how cut my thumb and get blood on my jeans.
tried to get it out but didn't really work, headed over to the mall
got my hair cut, went over to target to look at pants n such didn't find anything
got home the gas and electric guys were at the house and were like we need to shut off the power.
someone (i won't say names) forgot to pay the bill from nov 04! wtf
so i had to go to the bank get a bank check or what ever, and then go over to the gas and electric and pay the bill (1500.00)
get back home and put laundry in to do, and then thought duh, this needs power too (after i turned on about 5 lights and was like duh also)
so i was just about to jump into the shower and the power comes back on, nice huh but the bad thing is that it fried my ups for my computer (its a big battery back up thing) well it fried 1/2 of it. so now i have a power strip off the one side thats working and the stuff that was plugged into the non working side is in the powerstrip...
looks like i'm going to best buy some time today cause the stupid thing won't stop blinking and making a annoying sound.

but the good things about today are:
day off
its a great day out
i'm hopefully going to hang out with a person that i've been wanting to hang with today
and yeah thats about it i think

a while ago i started a music blog, which was a list of the songs i heard as i was at the computer with my winamp going n such i'm thinking about redoing the site since i came up with a nifty screen name last night. no i don't think i'll switch to this new s/n but i'll just add it to "screen names that i registered so i have them and no one else can" list :)

Vodka

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Groove Coverage - Poison

Your cruel device
Your blood, like ice
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill

I want to love you but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too much (Too much)
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't want to break these chains

Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace on sweat

I hear you calling and it's needles and pins (And pins)
I want to hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't want to touch you but you're under my skin (Deep in)
I want to kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill
I want to love you but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too much (Too much)
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

I want to love you but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too much (Too much)
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison, yeah
I don't want to break these chains
Poison, oh no
Runnin' deep inside my veins,
Burnin' deep inside my veins
It's poison
I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

you know i always find if funny how you find stuff when you're surfing the web. you know how you click on one link and then another and another and suddenly you're on a site or page that you dont know how you got to? well this happened to me today when i was looking at a friends web site, and i found something very interesting, so i took a screen shot of it.



it's odd where your friend end up huh?

i was just thinking that, i like having the blog here, my live on line journal about me, my life and such. but a think that i kinda dont like is that i might have to start censoring my posts. censoring such as not saying such words as fuck, shit, cunt or the alike, but what i actually say/talk about. cause after all this is a public forum and people do read this. so unlike a private journal that you might keep hidden in your room under your mattress that no one reads, this does get read. the repercussions of which could be both positive and negative in nature. but me being, well me, i dont like the thought of the possible negative outcomes.

so i guess those things get to stay with the inner self, untill the outter self knows thats its ok to talk about it on here. perhaps in vague hidden ways but what ever, all i know is that things are looking ok for me right now, i must say.

wtf was that?

i hear this loud noise just a bit ago, in my room, sounding like its comming from the roof or something above or to the side of my room, and since its in the back corner of the house i have no clue what it was. at first i thought it was something in my mothers room but it wasn't, so i go out side, in rain that just started and was looking around with my nice high powered flash light, and didn't see anything on the roof or on the ground in the front of the house, and nothing in the back on the ground, couldn't see the back of the house cause well there is still snow on the ground, i had my sandels on and its raining so oh well.

makes me wonder...

things i hate: in no order

being bored
having nothing to do
being lonely
vehix commercials
annoying people
having a good dream, and not being able to remember it
being thirsty
video games where you have no clue what to do
web sites you visit that are down due to some error or server upgrade
spam
my room the way it currently is
having to wait for warm weather when i want it
different browsers that display the same web page in different ways
fat on steaks
streaming music stations that play the same thing over and over
people who just stop comunicating with you randomly for no reason
being to hot to wear my comfy hoodies
trying to think of more stuff i hate

well after staying up all night finishing the web site i finally uploaded it to the server and made it live.
so please tell me what you think, and if there is anything wrong with it, such as broken links/images/page views just send me a e-mail

thanks all and let the posting begin
i'm a dork, yes i know

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