now i should really be in bed right now, or as soon as i got home but i'm not. i just have a couple things on my mind tonight.
first off went out with the girls from work again, namely Jen and Amy and and a good time. we ran into this girl that amy is trying to hook me up with but as things have turned out the last 2 times we were at the same place at the same time there was another guy, whom she knew or something to that sort, so who am i to interrupt that... and besides the bar seen isn't exactly my thing to try to talk to people/meet people i dunno. maybe cause there are way to many people in there at the same time.
we had tons and tons of pics taken of all of us, digital cams are fun toys let me tell ya. well all of you (the 3 that read this, and one whom i know out of the 3 for sure) know all ready.
we went back to jens and this guy and that girl amy was trying to hook me up with (whom she was talking to all night at the bar with) were on the coutch together so i went into the other room with amy and was hanging out where and some other people and jen, and let me tell you, that cuddling that that i've been wanting felt fucking nice tonight, just chilling with amy resting on her legs up on top of the futon me resting against her legs and jen across the futon and her head on my chest/lap got some good pics of it, good times good times.
on the flip side of that... things that i'm thinking of that aren't making feel too nifty:
- nights like this remind me of spending time with kat in boston, or just kat in general, i miss her
- will i ever get the girl? it's still bothers me a bit every now and then when jen talks about her exs or how she's waiting for her ex to come back from the military in front of me... wtf she knew how i felt, doesn't she might think that it could maybe bother me just a bit? or at least by my reactions how i totally lose interest in what she is saying and do something else? and this other girl erika, she has energy let me tell ya, kinda reminds me of kat... come to think of it all of the girls that i've had interests in (this last one eh so so ) but all of them have the same type of "energy" in one way or another, robin, kat, jen... and we know how all that went down...
but in all and all, i have good friends, so its not that bad. sure i'm lonely as fuck, always "the nice guy" but not the nice guy that someone want to be their boyfriend. its just funny how people tell me about these guys that they are with and they are treated like shit by them one way or other, and i'm thinking to my self, whats wrong with these guys, why fucking cheat on your girlfriend and then still keep it going.. if things aren't working out end it, talk about it, but dont fucking do something like that, its like slapping someone in the face. no respect for her, or the relationship. and a bunch of other shit that i can't figure out why peope do that shit.
i'd just like it, if a girl would "take the lead" as it were and be like hey i like you (and god willing she is cute and i like in return, and not a moped hehe) and just get the bullshit out of the way, like one of my writings said it just makes everything so damn easier.
first off went out with the girls from work again, namely Jen and Amy and and a good time. we ran into this girl that amy is trying to hook me up with but as things have turned out the last 2 times we were at the same place at the same time there was another guy, whom she knew or something to that sort, so who am i to interrupt that... and besides the bar seen isn't exactly my thing to try to talk to people/meet people i dunno. maybe cause there are way to many people in there at the same time.
we had tons and tons of pics taken of all of us, digital cams are fun toys let me tell ya. well all of you (the 3 that read this, and one whom i know out of the 3 for sure) know all ready.
we went back to jens and this guy and that girl amy was trying to hook me up with (whom she was talking to all night at the bar with) were on the coutch together so i went into the other room with amy and was hanging out where and some other people and jen, and let me tell you, that cuddling that that i've been wanting felt fucking nice tonight, just chilling with amy resting on her legs up on top of the futon me resting against her legs and jen across the futon and her head on my chest/lap got some good pics of it, good times good times.
on the flip side of that... things that i'm thinking of that aren't making feel too nifty:
- nights like this remind me of spending time with kat in boston, or just kat in general, i miss her
- will i ever get the girl? it's still bothers me a bit every now and then when jen talks about her exs or how she's waiting for her ex to come back from the military in front of me... wtf she knew how i felt, doesn't she might think that it could maybe bother me just a bit? or at least by my reactions how i totally lose interest in what she is saying and do something else? and this other girl erika, she has energy let me tell ya, kinda reminds me of kat... come to think of it all of the girls that i've had interests in (this last one eh so so ) but all of them have the same type of "energy" in one way or another, robin, kat, jen... and we know how all that went down...
but in all and all, i have good friends, so its not that bad. sure i'm lonely as fuck, always "the nice guy" but not the nice guy that someone want to be their boyfriend. its just funny how people tell me about these guys that they are with and they are treated like shit by them one way or other, and i'm thinking to my self, whats wrong with these guys, why fucking cheat on your girlfriend and then still keep it going.. if things aren't working out end it, talk about it, but dont fucking do something like that, its like slapping someone in the face. no respect for her, or the relationship. and a bunch of other shit that i can't figure out why peope do that shit.
i'd just like it, if a girl would "take the lead" as it were and be like hey i like you (and god willing she is cute and i like in return, and not a moped hehe) and just get the bullshit out of the way, like one of my writings said it just makes everything so damn easier.